Less than a week to go

In less than a week, I will be in New York moving into my apartment and starting my program. I'm feeling so many emotions right now with the move, the distance from my family and friends, and if I'll do well in my program. The fear of entering a new environment can do that to a person. I have the heebie jeebies at times wondering if I'll be able to make new friends and do well in the program. Those feelings do creep up on me once in a while. And on the flip side of that fear are my hopes, excitement to be in a totally different environment, and the ability to grow as an artist/designer.

As I have been detailing in my blog about spending time with my friends and family, I will as always miss those special moments. It's been hard this week especially to say goodbye to your friends who you've known for so many years and seen often to seeing each other during the holidays.

Lately, I have been trying to catch up with people who I've known years ago through messenger or by meeting up with them. I realized that things have changed in some ways. We knew each other in that instance of time where we had similar interests and passions, but we have moved on. I want to see them more and want them to be part of my life, but I can't be pushy about it. So, settling is what you do and accepting it. I had peace knowing that they're doing well and I'm doing well.

This Sunday I will start my packing. Yes, I don't pack in advance because that's just the type of person I am. As I think about what I need to pack, I think about what got me here, the experiences, and the people I've met. At this moment, I wish my mentor was alive to see this huge change that is happening in my life. If it wasn't for his inspiration and belief in me, I don't know where I would be.

This coming week I will be reflecting even more, counting my blessings, hugging everyone, and being at peace with the state of my life, relationships, and environment.